So basically, my life has been crazy.
For those of you who don't know, I've returned to Israel, but just as quickly as I've arrived, I'm off once more.
Poland.
But first, here's how I feel about my return;
If I was to be honest, I would say that part of me regrets signing up for this trip. I didn't anticipate Rwanda to take such an emotional toll on me. As wonderful as they are, the kids at the village would ask "do you have parents?" just as casually as they would ask my age or where I'm from. I guess I just want to be with my family, I'm so lucky. I knew it would be sad, but on the plane rides home I had to remind myself that these flights weren't leading to Chicago.
Arriving back in Yemin Orde was hard as well, I hadn't seen any of the chanachim in three weeks, and I left after only being back for two. If anyone from Year Course is reading this, the trip to Rwanda should be a week longer. I would've much rather packed up entirely before leaving and then meeting my section either at the changeover or in Jerusalem. I didn't like being back at first, because I really wasn't doing anything. I even visited Bat Yam for a night and still did nothing. I so badly wanted to be back with the kids. But alas, I was not.
So now I live in Jerusalem, right? My roommates are Rachel C, Jacky G, Isabelle M, Joanna B, Alexia F, and Mai S. They're a very nice group of girls, and I'm looking forward to getting to know them better in our last months in the Holy Land.
This week was honestly just a blur, a blur of bad internet and unexpected coldness. But I'm slowly adjusting.
Tonight, I leave for Poland.
I'm going to try to write a little each night, and post when I can (like any trip, there's no promise of reliable wifi). Earlier I said a part of me regrets signing up for Poland, but I've come to terms with the fact that you can't exactly get excited for a trip like this, you know? I want to go, but at the same time I've never visited a concentration camp or a Jewish ghetto. I'm not looking forward to being sad, and I'll do my best to make my posts as positive as possible.
Wish me luck!
As always,
Julia Rose
